My New HAPPY Life

Hello Hello my neglected blog.. I hope you miss me~

Guess what?? My so-called "best friend" took the guy I was so into from me. Yes, I'm talking abt the guy in the previous blog.

What happened?

Well, I was just so into him but I didn't know how to tell him, instead, I started to get him to hang out with me and my friends. The next thing I know, my friend slept with him the day after we hung out.. I'm mad at her and I still am. She is not my friend anymore. I don't think I can ever forgive her, especially after he told me he had got STI from her. Well, he regrets it but hey you chose to do it yeah, so man up and face the consequence.

Honestly, they are now no more a part of my life. I have my happiness.. And no I don't need a man to keep me happy although sometimes, a girl do feel the loneliness coming into her.

In August, I had the greatest birthday ever. It was my 20th and my friend from uni had this huge birthday bash planned. He worked closely with the uni admin staff members and he got DJs and what not. He combined my birthday party with the uni's freshman's party. It was just so so awesome. He knew everything I was going through, all the sadness, so he just wanted to see me smile and I think it's just the sweetest thing ever..

This is the guy who threw me the best birthday party ever. That girl behind him is ME ehehhehe~

I invited my back-stabbing friend and she made a fuss about coming to my party just for friendship sake yet she complained heaps, so I just told her to fuck off from my party. Let's face it, her birthday is just a day before mine and every one at uni know how we used to combine our parties in the previous years. I also invited the guy I used to like who is now my ex-bff's bf and he had a bunch of excuses for not being able to attend so I just told him to shut it. :)

Well, in one month I shall graduate and I'm so looking forward to it. I've got other worries now, instead of only men. Life just keeps getting better.

Remember people, when life gives you shit, that shit will one day lead you to a better life

Me and my Barbie ice-cream cake during my 20th

Oh and btw, my ex attended my MASSIVE 20th as a friend and that was just sweet too..

If I'm not mistaken, these bois were singing me a birthday song on the PA system :D

personally...

all men are dicks. no offends to the guys reading this but to sum it all up, they are dicks. big time dicks! i've had too much experience with them and to be honest, i've had enuf of them. period.

my BIG mistake

I'm over my past. I don't wanna let my past haunt my memories. Therefore, it's time to move on. Yes, I still do think back of what it was like when we were together. But truth to be told, it's a dead relationship. I don't think I can ever trust him again but I would like to keep him as a close friend. And yes, I do care about him a lot but it's nothing more than a friendship.

I've found myself someone new. But then, I made a huge mistake. We got so close that he now sees me as a friend he can share all his secrets with. I took the wrong steps. Everyone knows how huge a crush I have on him. According to many as well, he seems hotter than the previous one. He likes how matured I can be when someone needs a friend to talk to. He does have issues that he is dealing with but he doesn't open up to many. I'm probably one of the 2 or 3 people he talks to about his problems and his feelings about everything that's happening around him.

I, myself, on the other hand, do not have the guts to approach him and come clean. It's the fear of rejection. I know how he looks at me as a friend so most likely that's how it's gonna stay between us.

I fell completely for the way he made me laugh the first time we met. After my breakup, I don't think I have ever laughed in a way so natural and so happy that I don't have to fake anything. We're getting closer and closer. Though we just met 2 or 3 months back, he is now closer to me than he is to his mates of which he has known for years. However, there's always an obstacle in everything in life. It's personal. But it's mainly because of that as well that is keeping us from being more than just good friends.

crying my heart out

you made me cry
u brought me into this situation
it's all your fucking fault
i hate you
my life was so happy before i met you and u had to come in and ruin it
u're nothing more than an arrogant bastard; a selfish, self-centred arrogant bastard
to hell with u and all your lies
i'm sick of it and i'm not taking it anymore
u dont deserve me; i'm too good for u
one thing i'm sure of, i deserve a better civilized guy and he's out there waiting for me!
deep down my heart, this is how i feel abt u right now
i'm writitng this so everyone will know what kind of person u are

wehee~

Whatta long day I've had. Slept for like 3 hours last night and been surviving on V energy drink for the past 2 days. But heck, check out the website below, babe. Hahahaha I won the photo competition yo~

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single me

Heya guys,

How's it going? Life's been superbly hectic for me lately.

First, mid term is finally over. Gosh what a relief! I almost turned into a nerd.

Secondly, I had THREE 19th celebrations. Yeah, you read that right - THREE! Why three? I just felt like it.

Thirdly, apparently, not only is mid term over, my relationship's over too. I wasn't taking the break up too well but then with the support and encouragement from all my lovely friends out there, I manage to live my life as usual and keep going on. You guys are great. I don't know how I would be if it wasn't for all you peeps. I love you guys to death! Having friends like you guys is such a blessing.

Fourthly, the weather here in NZ has been misbehaving lately. All the wind storms and sudden snow really brought things up-side-down. The winds were recorded going at 80km/h. Some spring I'm having here.

Now, this has to be the best news ever.... Dudes, I'm coming back home! Whee~ Nahh not forever but for like a month. I so can't wait to see everyone I love again. It's been a year. Damn how did I survive?? Also, I can cook! Yes, I can. Goddamn I cook real good food. Guess that's what happens when I get sent away from home 20 days before turning 18~

Just in case y'all forgot how I look like, here's a pic of me currently :)

Oh and hey, happy moon cake festival youse. Seriously, I finally managed to find a shop that sells moon cakes. Shit yeah. The lady is a grumpy old granny-like Chinese woman who makes these stuff herself I suppose. She's always frowning she's got all those ugly wrinkles all over her face. Yuck. Smile, bitch! Oh who gives a shit. I have a choice of like only 5 different moon cakes to choose from and one moon cake costs like RM17. That's the shit man. I'm like living in heaven...

Yeah right!

i love shopping

Alright guys,

Listen up. Here's the deal. I don't have time to update my blog. So as a treat, I added more links to my fashion mania section for all you girls who love shopping. Those places are where I shop. So for all you people who worship me and dread to be like me, start shopping like I do OK.

Do the right thing and start shopping!