my BIG mistake

I'm over my past. I don't wanna let my past haunt my memories. Therefore, it's time to move on. Yes, I still do think back of what it was like when we were together. But truth to be told, it's a dead relationship. I don't think I can ever trust him again but I would like to keep him as a close friend. And yes, I do care about him a lot but it's nothing more than a friendship.

I've found myself someone new. But then, I made a huge mistake. We got so close that he now sees me as a friend he can share all his secrets with. I took the wrong steps. Everyone knows how huge a crush I have on him. According to many as well, he seems hotter than the previous one. He likes how matured I can be when someone needs a friend to talk to. He does have issues that he is dealing with but he doesn't open up to many. I'm probably one of the 2 or 3 people he talks to about his problems and his feelings about everything that's happening around him.

I, myself, on the other hand, do not have the guts to approach him and come clean. It's the fear of rejection. I know how he looks at me as a friend so most likely that's how it's gonna stay between us.

I fell completely for the way he made me laugh the first time we met. After my breakup, I don't think I have ever laughed in a way so natural and so happy that I don't have to fake anything. We're getting closer and closer. Though we just met 2 or 3 months back, he is now closer to me than he is to his mates of which he has known for years. However, there's always an obstacle in everything in life. It's personal. But it's mainly because of that as well that is keeping us from being more than just good friends.